Despite our doubts and fears -how much paranoia is normal in the first trimester before medication is needed?!?- we are pregnant. We are making a Little Human Being.
Not a moment too soon either, we've crunched some numbers:
1 devastating Infertility diagnostic: Azoospermia +
2 Surgical Sperm Removals, both finding Clives +
4 years TTC +
2 IVF cycles in 2 countries +
25.000 Euro +
190 pounds lost +
567 days without smokes +
37624 Vitamin pills and folic acid +
66 Acupuncture needles +
16 mature eggies +
4 embies put back in +
0 frosties +
0 Positive Mental Attitude +
123 HPTs this cycle +
>500 HPTs total +
791 - Beta at 20 DPO and 4840 - Beta at 24 DPO
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= 1 ICSI Miracle!
No point in uploading all the beautiful BFPs but suffice it to say there are pictures of a vast majority of those 123, the book will need a special photos appendix, there are faint ones, poorly lit ones, trembly ones, progressions and successions, digitals, ICs, Frers, Clear Blues and other. All now conquered with their beautiful test lines darker than the control lines.
As for the scan, know how most -sane- people only have a few over their entire pregnancy? We had 4, of which 2 yesterday! One of which, an abdominal scan performed by Dr. Clueless scared our pants off dating the sac as earlier than our 6 weeks mark and seeing nothing but. (Although, if you saw it and you squinted just a little bit you may had be able to see a white dot in the middle of the "only sac")
The second one was a marvel and despite no measurement being done, there was a HB briefly spotted too.
The next scans are on the 17th -current ObGyn- and 18th - IVF clinic dating scan- and there's also a midwife appointment on the 11th.
Still wondering what I am going to do with myself now that I am not undergoing IVF or peeing on sticks! I mean there's only so much time being nauseated and having an upset tummy takes. Or even so much time one can nap. No, strike that, it seems to be unlimited these days, yesterday I suddenly fell asleep in the car X 2, in the doctor's waiting room X 1, while getting the progesterone X 2, on the couch X 2 and even on a chair X 1! Anyone else finds they may be a danger on public roads now that coffee is not an option and lights seem to be out at random times and swiftly?
Maybe it's time I smiled a broad "yippie, we did it" kinda smile, held my Viking's hand tight and proceeded to get new definitions. From all points of view.
So there we are, welcome to the rest of our life, we found Clive, now we're filling this in:
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